Friday, January 18, 2013

Just Let Me Say


Just let me say how much I love You

Let me speak of Your mercy and grace

Just let me live in a shadow of Your beauty

Let me see You face to face



And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth

And the heavens will tremble and fall

But let me say how much I love You

Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend



Just let me hear Your finest whispers

As You gently call my name

And let me see Your power and Your glory

Let me feel Your spirit's flame



Let me find You in the desert

Till this sand is holy ground

And I am found completely surrendered

To You my Lord and Friend



So let me say how much I love You

With all my heart I long for You

For I am caught in this passion of knowing

This endless love I've found in You



And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found

To be called a child of God

Just makes me say how much I love You

Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend (x2)

 

Just makes me say how much I love You

Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

 
For a long time, I can't see and I can't hear, what others are telling me, without words. I don't understand the suffering that was silent. I couldn't see the tears behind those angry words. I couldn't hear the cries behind the cold and aloof stares. All I could see is myself, my pain, my fears, my rejection.
 
 
And then slowly God opened my eyes to see how the world is filled with people suffering deeper fears and darker despair than I have known. He opened my ears to hear the desperation in the language of silence, absence and restlessness. He broke my heart with betrayal, disappointment and humiliation. He tested it with trials, temptations and loneliness. And now I can see myself better, how small, how broken, how helpless and bare.
 
 
And when it became dark, and I seemed to have lost my way and my voice in the desert. His song came, and lifted up my spirit. His song of unwavering faith, enduring hope and a love that never fails. He taught me to trust Him when I cannot see the next step. He taught me to pour joy into hard places and not be afraid of running dry. He taught me to love and accept those who have sought to hurt me. He showed me what He can do with a small and broken heart like mine, when it is fully surrendered for Him to fill and empty.
 
 
And now I can see myself in His eyes, not what I have been, now what I merely am today, but what I will be, as I trust the Refiner's hand, to hold me in the heart of the flame, till the very moment, His reflection, His grace and glory, can be seen in me.